13 May Forgiveness & Ceremonies
With all the change that has been going on, the common theme running through it all has been Forgiveness… And I have been delving further, by asking the question, How can I forgive? And that question has been directed at myself…. The more I ask it the more I find to forgive… for all the things in the past I ‘should’ve’ done, or said or whatever it was – the past is the past – it cannot be changed. And there is no point dwelling on that which cannot be changed… however, there is a key, to moving on, to finding forgiveness and allowing yourself to be free. It is called FEELING.
The past Full Moon, saw Adaya and I create a ceremony… it was a very powerful one, yet, very simple…. I think that any time we truly acknowledge what has been, with ceremony or ritual, it can help us to let go and not deny what has been… it allows us to FEEL all of the emotions, that came with the past.
We took 3 long stem Roses to our favourite Headland at moon rise, 2 Red and 1 Pink, that looked Purple. I left my phone at home unintentionally and we headed out onto the rocks… I said my piece for what the rose represented, and then asked Adaya if she had anything to share about what it that aspect represented to her…. I couldn’t see the moon, even though it was the clearest sky in a long time, but still, we continued our ceremony… not just to release, but to really acknowledge with a very conscious intention, to honour it for what it is – 2 significant males leaving our life very close to the same time, and the purple rose, signifying her first tooth falling out (a day after her Dad left to live in another country)… After we said our piece for each individual rose and part of our life, we threw them into the ocean, one piece, by one piece…. I looked to the horizon, wondering where the moon was, but just trusted and allowed our ceremony to unfold… We stood for a bit, and I allowed my mind to wander to what had been and the significance of the day – it was day 21 on me releasing my past relationship, day 21 of no contact – and anyone who knows how challenging it is to let go of not only a relationship, but an addictive one, it was a very significant day… I did not plan it this way, but I love the Perfect Divine Timing, that is always at play… at last Adaya said she was ready to go and we began our walk back along the rocks… as I turned back to look for the roses, even though I could not see – there – there hanging just a millimetre above the horizon, one very big orange Scorpio Full Moon…. The moon, would’ve been clearing the horizon, at the very time we released our roses and the significance that was poured into them. I gasped in awe, again, at the perfectly insane timing, that is always at play.
I am sharing this, because if you have been going through a hugely intense time – please know you are not alone. There has been such huge shifts since Easter – a time of awakening and for the next 6 months these changes are now put into play – the changes that we’ve been trying to make and working on for the past 18months. In October, falls the last of the 4 major eclipses that have been playing out every 6 months, October, signifying the last one of this tie making 2 years in total.
The more I have been walking this path – as hard as it has been, the more I am becoming super clear and what it is that has been holding me back. More and more, How can I forgive? The more gentle I am becoming with myself, the more I am being shown what else needs to be let go of, and with this, the utmost gentleness – crying is healing and releases the past – let it go, let it go, let it go – they say… If you are not feeling, you are not living. Don’t try to analyze those feelings, just let them flow…. as it came to me on Saturday – to analyze takes you out of your heart and into your mind – analyze and paralyze…. or take your mind into your heart, breathe deep and feel whatever arises.
What next what next? It is a time of action – take action on those things you know you need to do. Say no to demands on your time and honour yourself, by following what your heart calls – no one else. Forgiveness comes when we can honour ourselves – honour our heart… forgiveness comes when we allow ourselves to be soft, gentle, and listen to the deep inner stirring, that comes from the alignment of your Heart.