🔥I AM PRETTY SURE I PASSED THE INITIATION 🔥

🔥I AM PRETTY SURE I PASSED THE INITIATION 🔥

First of all, I am DEEPLY touched by all your heartfelt messages and birthday wishes, much of which I am still getting to reply to! THANK YOU from the bottom of my deep heart, DEEPLY received by you all, and I am so grateful you are in my life. I wouldn't be here without you all and I am eternally grateful 💗💗💗

On my birthday, I am pretty sure, I passed an unexpected initiation. 

Last year, I also went through an initiation - and maybe that is what happens on birthdays? 🤔

I used to get so disheartened on birthdays and stopped really celebrating them at all, after my 21st where I invited a whole pile of people, hired a venue and only 5 showed up 😳This was, just 3 months after I had 'awakened' - so I guess I was already starting to feel the separation from the people who were just party friends, compared to what real friends even mean. 

I'm getting sidetracked... 

Back to current day reality - I had a big 'knock' on my birthday - that - this year, I consciously CHOSE to not work non stop, I planned my birthday week months in advance, for last year, I was so busy I didn't even have time to breathe, let alone receive the gift that was my birthday. 

It is one thing KNOWING that you have to CREATE time for the things that are important to you, that you want to do, that you want to learn about, that you want to move forward in, explore or otherwise. 

It is another thing CREATING the time to make things happen. 

Sometimes the realisation - like for me, last year - was sooo busy, I had hit the second month earning the most I had ever earned in my business last September my business was really taking off! Yet - the influx, almost - caught me unexpected and I was so busy, trying to keep up with it all! 

Fast forward to right now and it has been a journey to realise and CREATE the time, so months in advance, I was super conscious to clear my calendar, so I ONLY needed to do essentials that day and then consciously planning my week, to support what my heart wanted to do and celebrate for my birthday and I did. #grateful 💗

It might sound simple, it might sound like a no-brainer, but when you have been PUSHING for YEARS, when you have been running at affect of all the hurts, pains, trauma and more for YEARS and then stepping into creating your own company and healing all of that at the same time - (I once saw a meme that said, something along the lines of 'Entrepreneurship, the biggest lesson/course in personal development, one can ever take') How true that rang for me. Maybe that is why the last 3-4 years especially, have felt like the most exponential growth ever. 

It was a wonderful day and a special afternoon planned, that was the best heart warming and expanding experience/gift that I could've ever asked for and have been asking for about 18 months! (not the Whale's this is something else) - and the afternoon, the event, left me hanging. No one showed. And I was so disheartened. 

I began to question everything, due to this particular heart warming event, was something that we were connected to many years ago, but have since kept to ourselves this last 4-5 years, and it really knocked me. 

All my stuff surfaced, the not being part of something, the why does everyone hate me - I know I trigger people, but gosh... this too? Again? I was conscious - SOOOOO conscious - that this was a test! 

I began catching myself almost immediately, and when those feelings wanted to surface, I caught them - I didn't push them away, I didn't bury them, I didn't hate on them, I didn't allow them to be the story - but I held them, I nurtured them, I cradled them, like a baby. 

I loved on them. Whilst staying SUPER focused that I didn't want this to dampen my day, I didn't want this story to bring me down. I held and nurtured these feelings, this experience and chose to allow it be what it was. 

I kept focus and vision on the higher purpose - 'God is in charge' 'There is a higher purpose to this event and I am trusting the flow' 'There is a reason this is occurring and I choose to trust in the process' 

My mind began wandering to all possibilities of, 'Maybe we aren't meant to live here after all' and how it took me to the destination I wanted to move to this time last year - maybe THAT is still happening I thought. 

Relaying all of this to Adaya as this was deeply involving her too, we both chose to stay focused on the bigger picture and headed to the shops, to look around and get dinner together for my birthday which was always part of the plan. 

I still felt off, but we looked anyway. I just wasn't 'in the mood I was before' AND I have learnt not to buy anything when feeling that way as that energy is impounded in what I am buying. 

We were about to head over for dinner when we saw the tea shop and I needed more Green Tea. So, that, felt like nurturing and so we went in and the Green Tea was better than what I have ever had, so divine, along with Rose Tea, full real little rose buds - super heart nurturing and loving. 

Walking into Myer, we thought it would be nice to buy a new tea cup each, to enjoy our tea together. Adaya, leading the way, walking through the department store and right up - it was like she had blinkers on - straight up to the Wedgwood mugs - it was nice, plain white, with an indented pattern in the ceramics - not any colours or anything, just nice and 'Aesthetic' looking - as that is what she is right into at the moment. 

Out of the ENTIRE store - the Wedgwood Mug. At $299ea. Yes, that is my girl alright. 

It brought my heart joy to see her, to notice how she was just energetically drawn through the ENTIRE store, not even 'seeing' any other cups/mugs - and went straight to this. #ofcourse. That is my girl alright. 

The rest of the evening, set the tone, for creating the life of our dreams. Vision, after vision, joy after joy, memory after memory, of what I have always wanted, who I have always dreamed of becoming and where we have always been headed, that I feel like this past 2 years 'knocked' out of me. And it all came flooding back. 

Told you it was a new cycle 😉

3 hours, 3 days, 3 weeks, 3 years - those cycle tipping points, those - habit creating and breaking points - and I just went 3 years online! New stable reality baby! 🔥🔥🔥

Whilst basking in the realisation of everything flooding back over dinner with my girl, we received the message that all was well about the afternoon event. I smiled, deep heartfelt smile as I shared with Adaya - we passed the initiation. 

The old Hannah, would've taken everything personally. The old Hannah would've lost her shit. The old Hannah probably would've gone home and cried and missed ALL those amazing aligned opportunities to experience MORE alignment, energy, warmth and LOVE - the old Hannah - I love you - and here we are today, because of YOU! 

The most precious thing that I have learnt and is exactly what I teach in Trust Your Intuition - is energy cultivation. 

Trusting your intuition, so you are not knocked by other peoples energy. Cultivating your own energy instead of needing to be connected to certain people to be activated or drawing on their energy sources. Cultivating your own energy, so you can stay IN FLOW and CONNECTED TO SOURCE - which is your ultimate guide, your ultimate mentor, your ultimate LOVE. 

This releasing anything and anyone out of my field that is not aligned anymore, has and does serve an ultimate purpose. It creates SPACE. That space can feel uncomfortable at first - but it actually ALLOWS you to CREATE the reality you WANT in the space, rather than everyone else's stuff being in there. 

I know that afternoon was a test from the Universe - even though I don't like using that term - to describe it, I see/feel that is what it was... to show me - how far I have REALLY come and what it means to stay connected to my own energy, to stay FOCUSED on where I going and what I am FEELING - not berating myself, not shoving those feelings away, not hating on them. But LOVING them - every, step of the way. 

I created a magical birthday, because I CHOSE to. Last year, I was so disheartened, this year, I was consciously creating a beautiful birthday - and it is something that - this new cycle? Oh, it is my birthday EVERY DAY with this energy now. 

This cultivating and staying connected to source in this way? 

IS the way. 

It is the answer to EVERYTHING. 

The cultivation from within - is your answer to everything, provides everything, gives you strength for everything and is how you feel connected, at peace and deeply ALIVE again. 

If you feel ANYTHING but those feelings - the answer lays in reconnecting to yourself, loving your feelings, no matter how dark and being super present with what is. 

Your answers - come flooding through - when you do. 

Love, Hannah 
The Life Purpose Queen 👑

P.S. If you are ready to get your message out to the world, want the freedom to live your life on YOUR terms, not work for anyone else, be in your joy and ALIVENESS with your heart and soul singing out to the world - then it's your time to SHINE beautiful one! 

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