I don’t want to hold onto resentment or unforgiveness anymore.

I don’t want to hold onto resentment or unforgiveness anymore. I don’t want this density in my vibration anymore. 

When I was laying in hospital for 5 days unable to move and reflecting deeply on being given a second chance at LIFE, I thought about many things during that time, but the biggest was how much resentment and unforgiveness I was carrying from being so deeply cut in my heart from all the times I have been hurt, betrayed, backstabbed and more in my short little life. 

I feel like I’ve been angry for a long time, I feel like I’ve closed my heart over the years from all the times I was told words that were always broken (words are obviously a love language for me and mean everything). 

I somewhat knew this, but also didn’t know it.

I also would and have been told over the years that I’m intense, heavy, hold a dense vibration and carry a lot.

This has been reflected to me - a lot. 

And yet, I also didn’t know what to do with it.

Yes I’ve been through a lot of abuse, trauma and you name it over the years, my vibration has become dense from this..

Dark… you could say. 

Heavy…. You could say. 

Low vibration…. You could say.

And I don’t want this anymore.

The ‘dark attacked me’ you could say, because I let my vibration become this low….

From unforgiveness and resentment buried so deep in my heart… 

From eating non-organic food and not cleansing my body regularly- it’s all piled up, in many ways. 

From being heartbroken time and time again…

It was reflected in the angry/controlling men I would attract into my life… 

I became… anger and control…to somehow feel safe in a world where I had been abandoned, abused, betrayed, heart broken and left alone more times than I can count. 

At 21, (2005), I had my spiritual awakening and have been working deeply in this industry ever since. I learnt about angels, psychic development, quantum physics, stopped taking drugs, alcohol and became an organic vegan Queen way back when… I was Certified as a Lightworker Practitioner by the time I turned 22 - I’ve been doing this, living, teaching and breathing this lifestyle for a long - LONG - time. 

In 2008, I took a 9 month Yoga Teacher Training Course and by workshop 3 I discovered I had my daughter in my belly. During this time, I also attended court hearings and had to enforce domestic violence orders. 

From all those things named above… I became a woman who was not going to be left out in the cold.

I became a fierce mama bear who was not going to let her daughter go through and experience what she did growing up. 

By the time my daughter was 4, I had, had many years of being told to stop wasting my money on organic vegan lifestyle, to stop living beyond my means and - you name it, I had heard it and experienced a very dark side of my life. 

To free myself of this ridicule, I chose to go without a car for 12 months (as it was not mine, I gave it back to her father - we had separated when she was 3 months old, I had lived on my own with her ever since) I chose to catch the bus everywhere, which meant, I stopped going to the organic grocers and stopped ‘wasting my money’ on it. 

I became DETERMINED to not let her experience what I did - to not go without. 

This drove a huge part of my business - let alone the fact that when I graduated as a Lightworker Practitioner in 2006, I was given/became the guardian of Reality Awareness through meditation in a vision and was shown the Legacy of it - which is my Soul’s Purpose and dedicated my Life to this. 

By 2016, I had been through another rough relationship, that drove me further into building my business. I was not going to be a single mother still on the pension when my daughter turned 8 and that I needed to look for normal work and go back to normal work. Dreaming. Besides I could never hold a normal job anyway over the years, I would always come in and change all the system and make it better than when I left…. 

I sacrificed many things over the years to get where I am. I was told time and time again to stop living outside of my means, get a normal job, put my daughter in school (stop homeschooling), 

Did this cause the low vibration, density and resentment? 

This last 2 months since the dog attack… has unravelled so much for me. 

Being given another chance at LIFE - in hospital, I was so grateful to be alive and realised how close to death I was. 

Then, this last 2 months? The full swing of the grief cycle has kicked in..

Shock
Anger
Grief
Resentment/bargaining 
Getting on with it

Not in that order 👆🏻💥

It’s been up and down.

It’s been all over the show.

It’s still cycling 🌊 

Meeting someone in January that opened a portal to deeper healing of buried resentment shocked me… and sunk me into deeper layers of myself - ‘kissing the divine in another, in yourself’ - it was me.

It was meeting ME….

Remembering ME….

The ME, that was before I sacrificed everything.

You see, they were correct in some things… and it propelled me to prove them wrong. Ha. Rebel showing her hand here 👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻

Yes I used to buy everything organic, vegan and all the green smoothie things with my government pension as a single mum and not have any money left for anything else. 

I guess I was doing what was important to me and my health. For myself and my daughter. 

I was also doing it blindly you could say. It was all I worried about, nothing else. Somehow everything else got paid.

But those years of people hammering shit into my face about how I was doing everything wrong and stop doing all the things that were so important to me (and the people closest to me were the ones that said it the most) and me taking my freedom VERY seriously and was (and still) willing to do whatever it takes for as long as it takes to give myself and my daughter TRUE FREEDOM - well, I’ve created what I have that you see me living what I do now.. today.

But I won’t lie.

It’s taken TIME.

It’s taken SACRIFICE.

It’s taken COMMITMENT.

It’s taken it’s TOLL on me on all levels. 

It’s been HARD.

It’s taken EVERY CENT I EARNED and put it straight back into my business for 5 solid years. 

It’s taken me over $300k of INVESTMENTS into MENTORS and COURSES. 

AND I WOULDN’T CHANGE A FUCKING THING. 

Why? 

Because that deep sense of satisfaction that I FOLLOWED MY DAMN SOUL WHEN EVERYONE TOLD ME NOT TO.

Let alone I would die doing else anything but. 

It has made me arrive at this place now - where I have been shown - halted by the Universe because I didn’t realise - 

I HAVE FUCKING MADE IT 👑

I have reached a point where I have been free of any government pensions for almost 3 years solid now. I must be doing something right running my company hey? **cue that smiley face to all those people who told me to stop doing this psychic shit and get a real job** ha… you know what will be a real job in the coming years? 

INTUITIVE HEALING MOFO’s!! 

Anyway, I’m getting sidetracked…. 

I’m ahead of my time… I know… and I even forget this at times… it’s why people call me crazy after all 🙃

I don’t want to hold onto resentment or unforgiveness anymore. I don’t want this density in my vibration anymore. 

The dog attack was a wake up call for me from Spirit for me to see how incredible I am…

For me to realise how far I’ve come…

For me to see the stability I’ve created in my business that has been a company since 2019, was a sole trader since 2009, and before that since 2005 - when everyone around me over the years would continue (even this year!) to tell me how unstable I am…!!!

Nope. 

I’m just a Wild Woman 🐺 you cannot control baby, and it scares the mofo shit out of you 🔥

It was for me to realise that….

I do not need to sacrifice ANYMORE…

It showed me I can buy organic again… I can go back to that organic vegan queen who was thriving on LIFE 🌱 before it all got beaten out of me over the years for living my god damn well, LIFE. 

No more sacrificing of what I choose to purchase with MY money 

No more sacrificing my TIME - my time has become VERY sacred - hence my 1:1 working with me has deeply changed, increased - if you want to experience my sacred 1:1, well, it’s why everything has changed on my website and in Reality Awareness and how you can access working with me - no longer do I need to sacrifice anything anymore.

The Sacredness of Who I Am, no longer needs to be sacrificed to get where I am today…

And yet, I had to do everything I did and was WILLING to do whatever it took to get me to this space.

Because you see, way back when, when I chose to do that to FREE myself - which, would’ve been over ten years now when I began that choice… and a solid 5-6 years of true sacrifice - I could see where I wanted to be in my future - my long term future and the LIFE I wanted to create for myself and my daughter - not just tomorrow or next week or next year - but the LIFE in 5-10-20 years time - for her entire LIFE….

Anyone who tells me they can’t, I just move right along. 

You can. 

It’s all a choice.

People say you don’t have to sacrifice…. Sure maybe you don’t, maybe you’re choosing NOT to… 

But as a single mother who became the guardian of a vision that was given to her in 2006, that had been backstabbed, heartbroken, betrayed and left out in the cold…

I wasn’t going to let my life become a product of my outside circumstances.

And you don’t have to either. 

It’s not easy…

But 5 years of sacrifice… to now live my life in Abundance and Joy - because that was always the plan… and the attack and as my dear Client pointed out - the ‘cosmic handbrake’ that has forced me to stop -

Is because they wanted me to see where I really am…

See who I really am…

Remind me with people in my face now who I really am (which is a refreshing change to the controlling ‘nasty’ ones continually putting me down for who I am) - I now am surrounded by people who love and adore me, who reflect the highest standards of myself and my life, the kindness in my heart that I am.

But I had to walk away from everything that was not that. I had to block everything out for many years, to focus on where I was going. I had to be alone to face the deepest recesses of my mind, body and Soul to now see who I really am.

To be REMINDED of who I really am. 

The unforgiveness and resentment…. That has created the low vibrations, the sacrifices that has created the density… 

I can now release all of that - with true and complete freedom - which was one of the biggest goals that is why I begun. 

To free myself of everyone’s judgments that I was doing it ‘wrong’ on the pension and ‘living beyond my means’. 

Which by the way - is utter bullshit because I have ALWAYS stretched - which allowed me to get here…. It allowed me to have mentors that accelerated me to where I am now - I would NOT be where I am today without them over the years - even when people told me not to. 

It’s how we EXPAND baby. Breaking ALL the barriers - always. 

As I ground down into my Home, they’ve shown me I can have this Sacred Space. I can do me again - truly me again. 

This unforgiveness and buried resentment has floored me this last week as it has been releasing from my system - it has no space in my vibration anymore…. It has been purging out with more, I’m sure, to come, as I realise the truth of who I am… can return to the truth of who I am - in perfect unison, integrity and alignment of who I am - no sacrifice, true freedom and ultimate solidarity of who I am. 

My values… are so important to me. 

The density? The low vibrations? 

Sure, they were because I sacrificed to get to where I am…

But let’s be real - back then, I also still held that density - because I wasn’t in the true freedom of what I created now…

Sure, I was living more in alignment eating organic let’s say… but I was still tied to a 9-5 in some way, I was still stuck not being able to travel where I wanted to the next day if I wanted, I didn’t have the level of freedom I had today…

My vibration has been low… 

The resentment that created a level of darkness in my body mind spirit (sleep paralysis, Psychic attack, curses, hexes to name just a few - are your own choices not listening to your intuition and living out of alignment of your own values)… (do you even know what your values are?? We cover this deeply in Trust Your Intuition). 

Is living out of alignment with your values - staying in relationships, situations or choices in life that are not of your true self create this. 

Get into alignment - TRUE alignment and watch it all dissipate. 

It definitely takes time, sure some things can move fast, but let’s be in reality about the density of LIFE in this 3D world too… 

If I didn’t Trust my Intuition over all these years - even when everyone told me not to - I wouldn’t be where I am today…

Do you have the confidence, trust, sense of self or even know what your vision is?? 

If I didn’t do the work way back when - I wouldn’t have been granted the guardianship of Reality Awareness to be here guiding the world, impacting thousands, and dedicating my Life to the Legacy of Reality Awareness - my Soul’s Life Purpose. 

If you’re not clear, cloudy or don’t trust your intuition… 

Isn’t it, time to stop - wasting time? 

We start on the 22-02-2022. 

You know what to do, click here: https://www.realityawareness.com/trust-your-intuition

Love, Hannah
The Life Purpose Queen 👑 

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