I feel like I haven't stopped...

I feel like I haven't stopped...

I feel like I can't catch up on my work.. 

I feel like I can't keep up on the ideas that are pouring through me... 

And yet, at the same time, I know that what I am feeling right now is expansion. 

It just.. doesn't feel like that sometimes! 

Yesterday was a weird energy day for me - and the day before, so Sunday afternoon Australian time. Super weird energy. I wondered if I was feeling someone.. an ex or something... but then some of my clients and students had posted in my groups and messaged me feeling same sort of weird energy. 

It was so weird that on Sunday night Adaya asked to sleep with me which was out of the blue, given that for 9 solid years she co-slept and then just like that overnight, she was done. So she hasn't slept with me for ages now and she even felt the strange energy. 

When we got into bed, going to sleep, I thought she was watching youtube on her phone, I asked her to turn it off and to my surprise she said, 'My phone is in my room'. We both heard it, it was like someone was on their phone watching youtube or something on their phone.. in our room, it was loud and close and... kinda like, okay, let's just top this weird energy off shall we?! 

I describe the energy to a client yesterday as, you know how some mattresses are layered with different layers of foam and different materials, it feels like the energy in the 'air' is like that, fluid and moving and 'thick' in a way. Not horizontal, vertical though. 

It feels as though each layer, is like a dimension, but not an entire dimension on it's own, it feels like it is one great big tunnel... does.. anybody else feel that? 

We are moving through a huge portal right now - and the energetics are very translucent and fluid, moving and yet, it is like it is carrying us somewhere like a big huge river. 

This portal of time, this October, November, December is always big energy months, it just seems this year, I am able to be super conscious of that and be gentle and kind to myself rather than thinking something is wrong with me! There is A LOT of energy moving through the cosmos right now, let alone from our Earth Mother Herself. 

I have to keep reminding myself that right now I am in a huge transition in my life where I am no longer needing to operate out of the old ways of being and when I catch myself in the space of 'I can't get it all done' or 'I can't catch up' I need to keep reminding myself that I am doing all that I can, right now. 

Maybe it feels this way, because I have handed so much over to my team with more to go that sooo many ideas that have been sitting there waiting space to come through for the past 2 years have all of a sudden flooded into my conscious awareness and energy and so implementing another ten things at once because that is just how I roll... 

Maybe it is because I have a bigger home to care for now, even though I am not cleaning or technically caring for it, (that's what you hire help for!), everything is just... bigger... 

And there is the expansion... the new structures, the new ways of being... that I am, putting all of my heart and soul into AND reminding myself that... this place I am at now - is where I have been working to get for sooo long. It is in this, that I am putting myself first and maybe that is where the old patterns kick in that I am 'not getting it all done' - however, the most important things are.. maybe it is just my virgo self wanting things more organised than they are! 

I know I will never be done, but there is also a level of standard that I adhere to, that is somewhat not up to standard this moment, because... maybe it could also be the new additions to our family... talking about expansion, with our four kittens, two cats, 12 baby rats and 2 rats, our dogs and... all of us.. so. Much. Expansion. All of a sudden.

Can I handle it? Can I... allow this expansion? 

It is taking some work! In a sense that there are some pretty huge embedded traumas that have been releasing from my body recently.. let alone the huge deep grief tears I dropped into two nights ago, after being stuck in traffic headed the wrong way which never happens to me ever and it brought up sooo much of the old hurt sitting there about my ex and how much I went through being in that old house of mine... we were stuck in traffic around that area and I guess it was making me face it, even though I didn't know that was sitting there. I was... angry to say the least! As if I have time to be stuck in traffic! Gosh, I was over it! But it went deeper than just my ex. 

Coming home I shut myself in my room and let myself howl... on purpose. 

Sooo much deep having to do it all on my own - in a sense of, the old masculine 'push' energy that I have been in, well... since my whole entire life, because what shifted out of my body, well that had created a trauma response for how I had lived my life ever since and that... is what was burning me out.. nothing else. 

The shift away from that energy, that has now moved out of my body, but the old energetic memory of 'doing it all' is currently being rewired, let alone shifting out of my life... this means new patterns, new ways of doing things and of course... putting myself first. 

Which is a huge deal for this people pleaser co-dependent super huge hearted lover of all of life over here!! 

It has been huge 2 months... and we are almost about to arrive at our amazing planetary line up that hasn't been seen since 1226.. more on that very soon! Sooo much to say about that all in itself! 

I'll be live-streaming in my Reality Awareness Support Group later today/this evening... I have a big vulnerable share.. but you're going to have to be in there to hear it. 

Expansion... that's all it is. 

And breaking out of those restrictive patterns that have locked held me down for all of time.. no more. 

Expansion and freedom.. my natural state... now to complete get comfortable in it! 

It has been an intense ride, that is for sure. 

And we are only just beginning! 

Love, Hannah
The Life Purpose Queen 👑

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