I feel my genuine authentic deep internal happiness for my life back again

I feel my genuine authentic deep internal happiness for my life back again and I am sooo grateful for this feeling. 

I am not sure what knocked me down or where ‘Hannah went’ - but I do know I could list things out if I really thought about it. 

To be honest….. life happened and it caught up on me I guess. 

What I do know is that recently (last 12-18mths) I have really been digging deep to find ‘where Hannah went’, where that happy, positive, life loving woman went - the one with sparkle in her eyes, positive deep open hearted free wild spirited soul that she is - where the fcuk did she go?! 

And yeah… life took it away from me… or something. 

Here is a list for you lol 

• relationship break ups that destroyed my heart and genuine belief in good things in life 
• my manifestations ‘taking longer than expected’ 
• thinking I should be further along in my love life, career and life in general by now 
• not realising what has actually happened to me in my life, how much I hold (and on my own at that) and comparing myself to other people 
• not even realising I sunk down into comparisonitis syndrome that made me halt everything I was fucking good at 
• not honouring what I really feel and trying to ‘do what they do’ 
• going into everything with a FULL open heart only to get trodden on and the life sucked out of me in so many ways
• I could go on

What I have learnt: 

• life is truly what you make it
• you do have to spend time truly healing not just the childhood hurts, but the 20-30-40-50 year life experiences if you don’t want to repeat patterns or keeping running blind, on adrenalin and away from trauma. 
• Feeling safe in your environment, cared for, loved by someone and that you matter - when you don’t have this - it is very hard to heal and takes a lot longer, go easy on yourself. You can do it, it is just a deep initiation that not many walk. I know. 
• where you are is perfect. It might not seem like it and you might hate it at times. But where you are - is where you are. I want to say - so deal with it and if you’re not happy - well it is up to you to make yourself happy. Most people don’t want to be happy - they are comfortable in their misery and negative spiteful spitting snake pit and to step into the life giving joy, happiness, fun loving open hearted human they can be is scary - especially when negative has become their best friend. Choose open hearted, wild spirited and free anyway. 
• You will have to face the confrontation of people questioning you, putting you down, talking, blogging, writing about you and snake spitting behind your back, but ‘kind to your face’. You will learn who your true friends are on this journey and realise that Kings and Queens of truth and empires have a very small circle and you grow to love it this way. You are a leader and lead the world, you don’t need a lot of friends - you’re busy loving the life you have designed, dreamt of and created anyway, more friends takes valuable time where you can be making money and loving your empire freedom loving do what the fuck you want when you want life you’ve crated and would’t change it for the world anyway. So own it and stop comparing yourself to those who have massive friends photos on their feed - they ain’t getting paid for it and those entrepreneurs you see that have this - are. Choose your fence and love the life you’ve created. 

It has taken me a bit to feel this deep inside of me again and I am so grateful it is back. I had to constantly ask - where is my open heart gone? Where is that happy, carefree, wild spirited Hannah I used to be - and with this continually questioning… she slowly rose up out of the cage she was locked away in - because everyone in her entire life had turned their backs on her when she gave EVERYTHING to it - I am someone who goes ALL FUCKING IN and when I am turned away from I am also gone, but fuck it threw me down some dark holes trying to figure out what I had done wrong and to deserve THIS. And yet, if I did not travel ALL those feelings in the last 2 years, I KNOW for a fact I would not be feeling this genuine deep internal happiness I am now. 

Golden Nugget: YOU CAN HEAL AND FEEL HAPPY, SAFE, OPEN HEARTED AND FREE AGAIN. KEEP GOING. 

You can feel the darkest, hardest feelings and honey, it will take time and feel never ending - but I guarantee you - you will heal and feel happy again. 

The entire journey of the last 20 years and the breaking point of that 20 years the year of the dog attack recovery was so massive. I made a very clear decision that year - to pack up my life in Queensland and ‘go home’ to Perth or stay here and this is my life now. 

I chose to stay, realising that after 20 years, it truly is my home now. From that moment, life got very, very hard and I feel like I was reborn and starting life all over again. That was 2 years ago now and I feel that it’s been the last 2 years of soul searching, recalibrating of the highest order in EVERY area of my life, continuing to adjust to country/hinterland lifestyle and elevating my business model to support the next iteration of Reality Awareness to hold consistently at $200k-$500k months. 

I am super conscious with working wit the timelines and what they represent, how to work with them and the cycles that life brings. That is the basis of life right? Constant Change. It is the ONLY consistent thing.

It is why when you just think you’ve found the $1M answer or magic pill - everything will shift and reiterate you all over again and it is here - that the ones who have learnt to ride the waves, pivot, shift, adapt, change and continually be malleable to the ever growing, fluctuating, expansion of consciousness itself, manifesting in human and earth life here where we find ourselves, are the ones who are the most successful and you look at them wondering how they do it or got to where they are. 

It is this. 

Change. 
Fluctuating, shifting, ebbing and flowing tidal change. 

When you get the nudge to move - move. Not just move house or maybe that is what you are being called to - but move on your intuitive guidance. 

Your intuition is the fastest route to what you are asking for - but if you are moving on what it is guiding you do, be around, sign up for, shift into, change, leave, walk away from - then you will get left behind and wonder why they are doing it and you are’t there yet - but if you are honest - you haven’t made that move your intuition is telling you to do! Start here and watch the floodgates open. 

Are you?

Are you - genuinely happy in your life? 

Love, Hannah
the Life Purpose Queen 👑

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