I’ve been in a cocoon.
Feb 21, 2022
I’ve been in a cocoon. I’ve been quiet - on social media, like real quiet. Sure I’ve been putting stories on every now and then, but it’s not like I ‘should’ be doing, especially the last week of Trust Your Intuition being open. That is definitely not what ‘traditional marketing’ would tell you.
However, if I can’t trust myself with this cocoon that I’ve been in - even when everything was screaming at me not to be in this cocoon space on the last week of doors open for Trust Your Intuition, I wouldn’t be practising what I preach now, would I? 🙃
The dog attack really shook me up, in so many ways. I feel that it is hitting me harder now than when it first happen - in a sense of it all ‘hitting’ reality or something. Just like when it first happened, my brain is like yes let’s do all these things and body like nope!
It’s same now.
I actually have had some inspiration drop in this last week, which is a change from zilch.. and got all excited to sit down and write the other day, open my door to my office to type and then freeze… oh yep, can’t type. Broken finger. Oh that’s right 🙃🙄😥😭
Or meditating… and then an image of a grey Staffie ‘float’ past my third eye and from being sooo relaxed and dropped in from meditating to my entire body freezing up and felt the significant change in my body without me doing a thing but seeing it, sooo much it pulled me out of it and back to reality quick smart. I know they showed me that to show me the reaction my body still automatically has.
I know these… are part of the cocoon.
I also know that I’ve been very down with not being able to do the things I normally do to keep sane, keep in flow, be me, do me, find me…. Love me.
Surfing
Running
Gym/strength training
Yoga
Not to mentioned normal everyday things.
Well, to be honest I’ve been down in the dumps about it all. And I’ve definitely reached a point where I don’t want to talk about the shit stuff anymore, I don’t want to give it voice, I don’t want to give it power, I don’t want to breathe a single bit of energy into it.
Hence why I haven’t posted. Or written. Or anything.
What I have been doing is shifting my focus.
What CAN you do Hannah?
So I have been.
And I’ve not wanted to write or speak or show you any of it.
Cocoon time has allowed me to recalibrate at a level I have not done before.
I used to share everything and I don’t want to do that anymore.
I’ve been getting REALLY clear on where Reality Awareness is going, on where Life Purpose Coaching & Reality Reconfiguration 1:1 with me is going and most importantly, what God is calling me to actually do with it all.
That… hasn’t involved me sharing everything I’ve been recalibrating with behind the scenes.
That has meant that cocoon has been essential for this Reality Reconfiguration for myself and Reality Awareness.
If I couldn’t trust myself in this well….
And huge things have come out of this cocoon 🦋
Ideas, physical reality recalibrations, dreams manifesting to life, books being printed, furniture arriving, garden beds complete, deep soulmate love showing up, magnesium pool complete, soulmate clients coming in, incredible students joining us for Trust Your Intuition… all with me following Soul, and trusting my cocoon space 🦋
You see, I’m remembering….
Who I used to be…. Before I got knocked down.
But…. Who I used to be - is not here anymore either.
I’m not Her.
But parts of Her, I long for, I miss.
And Her, Me, is coming back, in a new way, in a way that is…
Now.
Not longing for the past.
Not hanging for the future.
But being so present with all that is, and remembering the deepest recess of my Soul that have long lain buried, nailed away, buried away…. No more.
What is emerging is something that I have ‘had’ to do nothing but literally ‘surrender’ to.
I physically can’t do many things right now… so I’ve had to surrender.
Many things in my business I have had to put to sleep for now because I physically can’t do them.
My solace has been in what I CAN do…
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