I was never going to be someone's fucking housewife

I was never going to be someone's fucking housewife and yet, those very things are what my Heart has been yearning for. 

Not the housewife part - no, not that 🤮that would just kill my Soul to solely be someone's housewife tied down, locked down and omg my Soul screams for Freedom when I even think about it - cringe city and.... The Selkie and Her Skin deeply comes to mind...

However, my Heart - has been yearning for it. Back in March, I had an experienced that showed me just how much I had shut down my Heart... from all the Heart break over the years and ever since I have been working deeply on re-opening my Heart and #ouch. 

With space being created more and more in my life after coming out of a 5 year tunnel of building foundations that have set me up for life, I've had some stark realisations in this 'space'. 

About a month ago I was feeling super lost and you may have heard me talk about my dream on livestream not long ago where my car stopped. 'Take your hands off the wheel Hannah!'. In all this space - I have been wondering what to do, now my team has my back with a lot of the work I used to do wearing all the hats as a Solopreneur. I know what to do, but it has been a physical, energetic, spiritual, mental and all the things recalibration as I come back to.... Life it seems. 

Let alone tipping over the 9 month mark of being in this home where we are now, there is a massive recalibration going on, leaving that lifestyle, that home and that includes the most prominent relationship I had in that house back in Wurtulla. 

In this 'space' - remembering, who I am, remembering what I love, remembering what to do with my spare time. 

And recently the stark realisation? 

A huge piece was - ready for this?

WTF do I create, what do I talk about? 

In a sense of, back in January, I realised after I did a livestream on leaving narcissistic relationships I was tired of talking about it all. Gah 🤮 is how it made me feel. I guess it showed me I had grown out of it all, sick and tired of talking about it, re-hashing it just #done. 

And so I made a decision to stop it. And kept restructuring my business. 

Now I am where I am now.. the stark realisation that made me process some deep things is - that a lot of the content I produced in this time has been about - leaving narcissistic relationships and healing from abuse and trauma within them! 

There is a lot more I guess. Psychic Development yes including all the things for sure - but there is a big chunk that is all about relationships. 

I was thinking as I was in the kitchen as tears ran down my face with another wave of grief hitting my Heart with realisations all over the place (all those Snakes making me realise the truth - let alone Third Eye Chakra Consciousness starting today - all about relationships and realising the truth in them! #ofcourse this is how my life gets to be - just one big consciousness live journey #always #normal) 

I tell you one thing - all of this over the last 5 years and last 9 years prior - has taught me more about relationships than anything else. 

I understand relationship dynamics like the back of my hand and what that has taught me? ENERGY. 

Energy baby. 

It has increased my psychic development ten-fold and is why I drop so deeply as normal picking apart different aspects of your life, my life, reality and all dimensions of time all at the same time.

Releasing trauma and pain from the body and psyche along side deep cognitive understanding about what is what, is a gift, but releasing it, also is what allows you to become more psychic. 

It is why my gift scares people and brings up stuff for people that makes them stay away from me like no tomorrow.  

And yet there are some people who are right there with me... 

I was never going to be someone's fucking housewife and yet, those very things are what my Heart has been yearning for. 

 In all this 'space' the first things I find myself doing are exercising, taking care of my body, taking care of my home and preparing amazing food. All the housewifey things 🙄

However, I do it in my own flow, in my own time, on my own timeline. 

Maybe it is the way the men I have been with have expected me to be the housewife and stay at home whilst they go to work and earn the money. That was never going to be me. And yet, they would cringe when I spoke about Super yachts and the like, because they thought I was expecting them to finance it for me. No... I already have a plan when I speak about things. 

Fuck knows why I would attract men so far back in the old paradigm of the woman is the house wife and they go to work. I have been wondering why the fuck I attracted such on repeat. 

Maybe it was because I didn't know who I was back then #truth

Maybe it was because I never had real space from mum duties full time on my own #alsotruth

Maybe it was because I also never had time because I chose to put my business first to stabilise my life #alsodefinitetruth

And maybe I am coming into a time now where I have more and more space and the less I work the more money I make #alsodefinitetruth

That maybe... it is just time now I am noving to the next stage of my life with having created the solid foundations AND..... remembering who I am, what I love, what nourishes my Soul and coming back to me. 

That is all the things that I love about my home, my life, the way I nourish my body, my Soul, my life, my Home and all that are in it. 

I love being creative in the kitchen, it is just over the years I have learnt it has to be in flow and If I am being super creative in my work, then that is where my creativity focus is - not the kitchen - it just ins't alive for me. Hence why the house flow, the kitchen flow and my work flow, are all - in flow - when they are in flow. Not forced into a rigid structure.

I've always wanted to work as a team with someone in the house.. not be the one who does it all, not be the housewife... but team house. 

But until then, I will continue to create space, whilst the foundations of my Life Purpose continue to expand, grow, stabilise and support myself the way I know how. 

Ah, sooo much is coming up in this space.... I think I will continue on here in it. It is not easy to feel the pain (but I'd much rather that than getting sick) and.... My Soul is loving the space being created for more... Soul to shine. I like it. 

Love, Hannah
The Life Purpose Queen 👑

P.S. If you're ready to throw all caution to the wind and remember the Goddess Spark that you ARE, to walk away from what no longer serves you, clear out the skeletons in your closet that you can't even see but you can FEEL them there then send me a message as my 1:1 private mentoring is open. 

P.P.S. If you're sick and tired of running that rat wheel time and time again, the same situations over and over and wondering why you get hit energetically time and time again when you do so much work or have done ALL the things.... Trust Your Intuition is OPEN. 

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