Time.

Time.

Time been very in my circle lately again.

Time is changing.

But the way I am using my time, has changed.

Time is what we make it.

Time is my most valuable resource and I value it greatly.

What I do with my time.

Where and with whom I place my time and energy. 

And lately, this precious gift has been returned to me.

After many years of giving my all to my business, finally I have time again.

Time to spend on me.

Time to spend with my daughter.

Time to spend with my animals.

Time to spend with my home.

And this, has been a huge shift for me lately.

Whilst for many years, and even up until recently, I would pang with jealously and sadness, for seeing fellow entrepreneurs sailing on the clear ocean waters that I long for, that my Soul craves, the beautiful ocean and glimmering waters that fulfil my Soul like nothing else - I had a huge realisation recently.

I thought I wasn’t far enough ahead.

I thought I wasn’t ‘there yet’.

There have been MANY reasons for building the business I have and the biggest driver being Freedom.

You know, the laptop lifestyle to travel the globe and the like. 

Well, my 5 year plan was right on target, and yet covid hit on that 5 year mark so, well that travelling the world with my laptop business went out the window.

I road tripped with my daughter and our animals instead and we found ourselves here, now living on this 250acres for which we have been for almost 2 years now. 

Right, where God wanted me. 

It has definitely taken me a bit to get accustomed to living on the land and whilst I can write a book about it and am, of the journey that led me here and how much I had to shift to live in such a place, the biggest realisation I feel called to share with you right now is this.

I felt a lot of shame up until recently for… who I am and my life.

I thought I wasn’t good enough because I wasn’t the shining entrepreneur who had her shit together (who does!) and had a stable enough business to be able to go on travel trips everywhere because well, isn’t that what entrepreneurs do?! 

Maybe it was my own ‘plans’ that aren’t where they are ‘meant’ to be yet.

Maybe it was me being triggered every time I saw someone post about ‘make sure you’re happy in your life that you show on social media’ and for quite some time it would bring on more shame.

Because I wasn’t. 

I wasn’t living the life I have dreamt of. Even though I’m trying to be happy where I am, I haven’t been.

I dream of Maldive clear waters and tropical islands as normal.

And walking through cow shit on my morning walks in mists and mud… is a far cry from where I thought I would be right now or… what I had even built this business for.

And yet…. Something shifted in me this last few months.

I have come into…

That I am exactly where I am meant to be.

But this shift didn’t come from me writing that affirmation out in my journal a zillion times! 🙄

I am sure there are many things that helped this shift (yep, you’ll have to read my book)….. 

But I realised….

I’ve been in a cocoon…

With my Daughter. 

That I have been raising my Daughter on my own since she was 3 months old and all my spare time goes into Her. 

And whilst before she was 7 I would share so much of our lives together online, this last few years she hasn’t wanted me to share any of it - and I have respected her in that 100%. 

Recently, this last few months, my business has turned a corner. After 5 years of fumbling along, figuring it out, turning up, following intuition, investing over $300k in mentors, coaching, programs and courses when I have not had that available to invest to further and advance my business skills but made a decision for it to happen and just made it happen - somehow, it always showed up, because it always does - it has finally shifted and I have… the most precious gift of all returned to me - Time.

And that Time, has been going into the cocoon with my now 13 year old Daughter. 

I realised that my dream of tropical paradise islands, is my Inner Child’s memories of time with my Dad growing up. That my love of adventures is again, my Inner Child’s memories of adventuring with my Dad.

Whilst I still love these, I have realised a huge part of my unhappiness and depression was longing for these.

When right in front of me, in this gift of Time, is the most precious gift anyone could ever ask for… that of being a Mother. 

That… when I die… I won’t be wishing I took more boat trips to the next tropical island… or worried about how much money I made - but these have been important drivers to get to this place of stability in my business and life for myself and my daughter...(you know, to visit those tropical islands and freedom life of shopping without checking the price tag)

It will in fact be… was I the best, most present Mother I could’ve been? 

Did I love Her enough? 

Listen to Her enough? 

Did I stop everything to cook her food when she asks, no matter how old she is or how late at night it is, because that’s how Mothers show their love and care? 

Was I paying attention to Her enough whilst She is talking and sharing about her what happened in Her online game with Her friend? 

Was I interested enough when she was showing me what she built in Her game with Her friends? 

It is these little moments, that last a lifetime. 

Not for the every detail I remember with her.

But for the Bond that is created with such a relationship, that lasts for eternity. 

That, is something, the Gift of Time has been giving me lately. 

And whilst I have been busy expanding Reality Awareness and creating structures and systems that are stabilising the vision I have held dear in my heart since 2005, that God lay inevitable on my path as the Guardian of Reality Awareness and the driver to provide a life for my Daughter and I that I never had, I have been soaking in the deliciousness of the moments with my Daughter, in this place where she makes my house a Home. 

Whilst over the years I felt shame for not ‘having a stable intimate relationship’ and ‘how can I talk about relationships when I don’t have one’ (because all my client work is helping them - successfully I may add! - about their relationships) I forget at times, I have been in the deepest bond with my Daughter. 

I feel like I’ve been living in Avalon with Her, since she was 3 months old, with no family around and Her very present father now living overseas since She was 7, we’ve been on our own together. It’s definitely not been easy at times, but all my Time, has gone into Her. 

And I wouldn’t trade it for the world. 

I am grateful for Aware Parenting since she was 3 months old, I wouldn’t have the consciousness or the relationship understanding coupled with my acute intuition is why I know I help and shift my clients and students the way I do and that… I owe to my Daughter and the Avalon life we’ve been living together. 

I have stepped into a place, where I am loving my life more than I ever have before. 

Even though I still break down at times on my morning walk with so much cow dung through the abundant paddocks, because I do miss the Ocean, I know God has my daughter and I here for a reason unbeknown to me right now…

And yet, the gratitude for being the Mother I want to be, the very present and Aware Parenting Homeschool/Unschool Mother that I am, that my Daughter has given me the gift of being, that I wouldn’t be where I am in my business, life or consciousness without Her coming into my life. 

That… is what I am soaking up more than ever. That, is exactly what I built my business for (well, amongst other things!) is the Freedom, to be able to be present with her… to show her, she can do it all, have it all and become it all too - by living experience.

In utter gratitude, joy, celebration and relief, has this realisation and shift come. 

How does truly, get any better than this? 

Love, Hannah
The Life Purpose Queen 👑 

P.S. I didn’t get here without hard work. Anyone who tells you it is all bliss is lying. It gets easier - once you learn what the fuck you’re doing and figure out what the fuck your purpose is even, learn the systems, the strategy and then throw it all tot the wind and do it your way after all again and again, do the healing over your karma and trauma and then finally figure it out. It takes time, dedication, discipline and turning up even through your tears and pain - time and time again. 

When I didn’t know what I was doing, when I was still figuring it out - there was one thing I was doing day in day out - that I STILL do today, because I simply wouldn’t be where I am today without it. 

Of course, you need the online platforms and presence and then even knowing what you’re talking about online to gain a following and sell your thing - what ever that is! But - the one thing that you must be doing even when you don’t know what you’re doing, is this. 

This is how I began and still, use this today. 

This is how I still, today, have people message me that become clients in a single conversation and they’ve only just discovered me on social media and stumbled across me. 

I have never messaged someone to say buy my stuff - unless you’ve messaged me first, then we chat about it.

I don’t friend people on Facebook and then tell them to join my program or group - never ever have. That makes me 🤢

I have built this from the ground up, using these methods and is what I still use today to expand and stabilise Reality Awareness’s mission and it is how you can too.

This is purely Soul led, purpose and passion. No MLM, no products that you are trying to force yourself to love because you really don’t just to make money. 

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P.P.S. If you know you’re meant for more…

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