WAKING UP IN A REALITY I DIDN'T ENVISION MYSELF IN

WAKING UP IN A REALITY I DIDN'T ENVISION MYSELF IN

Layers of wake up.. hitting home - hard. 

I always thought I wasn’t good enough or fit in with the ‘cool kids’ or had the fancy car or home or clothes or lifestyle that I was still striving to reach THERE…

But Spirit showed me something…

Did I ever want that?

Maybe?

Maybe I thought I was good enough then.

Maybe I felt like I would’ve made it then.

Where does that drive even come from?

Maybe I thought I would’ve been accepted by my family and ‘those friends’ then.

Maybe I thought I would’ve reached the detonation - ha meant to write destination #damnautospell - and yet detonation is right on point.

Spirit annihilated to complete obliteration - what I thought I was supposed to attain… to be… to hang around..

Maybe I was still longing to fit in from high school being on the outskirts of a circle of 4 rather than the rest of the year that seemed to all hang out in their pack of 50… I was just one of the 4.

I was never meant to fit in - anywhere.

And I’d been longing, searching for that place that would make me feel whole, then I could be happy and start living…

I was always told I was quick to anger…

I was always told I was one of the boys…

I was always told there was something wrong about me…

I was always…. Different.

Something lifted from me before our Full Moon and it has been peeling back layers ever since.... waking up to a cold hard reality - what was I ever there for in the first place?

The fragmented Soul that had always been looking for the pieces of who She was told She was not, so then somehow she could return back Home, whole, better and not something wrong with Her.

This last week I was shown just how much it’s been right in front of me, I was shown how much I had to let go - let go of all those things I was wanting, desiring, craving to make me whole again. Do I even want that? Why? 

And realise that… it’s been here, in front of me the entire time.

I’ve not been able to see myself for looking - alway looking through others eyes, opinions, judgements. Always something that they said that was not up to their standards.

It flabbergasted me, that that, is how I saw myself…. Through their opinions?! 🤯😳

How could this be so?

Always feeling wrong for seeking validation, always feeling wrong for carrying trauma I didn’t know I had, always feeling wrong for the foods I ate and the message I shared - because it was never good enough in their eyes, that I shouldn’t speak like that or be like that…or say it like that or show up like that, that is was never good enough. W. T. A. F. 

I disappeared and shrouded myself in my own drowning cloak, not realising just how much I covered myself, how far into the dark I really did go, let alone the weight I put on - completely hiding myself away, protecting myself from all their words that my Heart shattered into obliteration and created a huge wall to somehow cope with life after all that 😳 Yes, this photo is me - before I began building my online business. I am ready to get myself BACK to me - NOT who they said I wasn't good enough - being my god damn self! 🤬

Spirit showed me….

That the anger and jealously of all the women that seemingly have other big women friendship circles…

The anger and jealously of not having my life together (whatever that means!), forgetting that they are not single mummas that grew up in emotional absence to name the tip of the iceberg…

The anger and jealously of…. A life I thought I was supposed to live…

Annihilation and Earth Shattering reality did Spirit bring me back to that is STILL unravelling and yet -

This place…. Feels so deeply like Home. All the things underneath all of that, that has been clouding my LIGHT - CLOUDING ME??? THIS place - feels like HOME. 

Was all the anger and jealously at a life I thought I was meant to live - was it all just a fallacy to lead me….. Home? 

Or was it all those things that were projected onto me to be good enough to then fit in with the crowd? WTF. 

IT WAS IN FRONT OF ME - I BUILT THE DAMN THING AND COULDN’T EVEN SEE WHAT I BUILT - because it was still not good enough - in whose eyes?! 😶‍🌫️

WAKING UP IN A REALITY I DIDN'T ENVISION MYSELF IN

And yet the reality I am seeing - underneath all the shame, the judgement, the shrouded cloak that is LIFTING?

IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME - WHAT I HAVE BUILT

That as a tribe we are lifting the resentment...

As a tribe we are lifting the anger...

As a tribe we are lifting the isolation....

As a tribe we are lifting the jealously....

As a tribe we are lifting the abandonment...

As a tribe we are lifting the trauma... 

As a tribe we are coming into deep acceptance of self and self love that hasn’t been felt before..

An entirely new wave is rising….

A new wave of people who haven't given themselves permission to truly shine - maybe they did, but shut down and the cloak is being removed right now... 

Removed to see what we REALLY WANT

Removed to see WHO WE REALLY ARE

Removed to see all the things that have been STANDING IN OUR GOD DAMN FUCKING WAY

A new wave that’s been the slumbers…

One that has been asleep…

One that has always compared themselves to others because they forgot who they were…

THE ORIGINAL LIGHTWORKERS

THE ANCIENT BLOODED HEALERS

The viel is lifting... 

The truth is being seen.. 

AND FELT. 

That Heart is awakening to see WHO YOU REALLY ARE 

That you do not need to hide anymore and you are in disbelief because you can't beleive you let this even happen and that your life got like this that you have woken from this reality to realise.... 

This is not what I want. 

This is not who I am. 

And are on a mission TO RETURN TO YOU

To realise what you REALLY want and see that everything else was just a distraction from the truth of WHO YOU REALLY ARE. 

SHINE. 

On YOU.

Love, Hannah 
The Life Purpose Queen 👑

P.S. If you're tired of being in confused muddy mess, if you're ready to walk into the abyss of LIGHT that deeply shines the truth on who you are and never return to that unconscious life where you are shrouded in a cloak ever again, Trust Your Intuition is your key. We commence very soon and this will be the only time I run this as a 10 Week Live Training, click here for all the details to join the tribe that truly gets what it means to be an Ancient Blooded Healer: https://www.realityawareness.com/trust-your-intuition