Hannah's Blog

I have been, remembering what I love.

Because somewhere along the way, I forgot. 

I have found myself this last 12 months, becoming or realising more so, that I had become extremely resentful to a lot of things in and about my life. 

This last 4 weeks? 

A complete softening, a...

I realised that my desire for incredible luxury - stemmed from a deep desire to be taken care of, supported, nurtured and loved. 

That intense desire stemmed from not feeling that way throughout my years, or ever - of being loved, supported, nurtured and taken care of. 

Many would...

Things are very fluid right now - this way, no this way, no back this way - which way again?

Confusion - the ultimate control of the narcissist.

BTW #sidenote I saw a mentor that triggers the fuck out of me and inspires so deeply at the same time, talk about admitting she was a narcissist - ...

I didn't know who I had become... worst still I forgot my purpose.

I feel like this running business - like my entire life - that was normal. But this last 12 months? Has been soooo conscious and coming out of that running has left me in the dark with who I am, what I am actually doing and where...

Phew! Releasing this adrenaline addiction is worse than Heroin! 

(and yes, OBSESSED with this filter! Think I'm ready and willing receiving LIGHT baby! If only there were real Gold tattoos! )

Well, actually I wouldn't know... however, they say that Love Addiction is worse than Heroin and I...

At the time, it definitely doesn't feel like it and sometimes we are not shown until a year - or two later even, if at all.... why things happen the way they do. 

I have become obsessed with sleeping with my blinds open - THE STARS I can see from my bed takes my breath away - well, makes me...

When you feel yourself dropping into a negative spiral - first check - is it mine? 

If you find yourself 'out of the blue' starting to worry about things that you usually don't worry about...

If you find yourself feeling like you need to cry but you can't quite seem to cry, but feel on the...

Honey, the only reason it ain't working is because you've settled too low.

You keep dropping the ball because you have dropped your standards. 

You are full of anxiety or deep depression that doesn't make you want to move anywhere or total avoidance of what you KNOW is going to make shit...

This last 3 months has been one of the hardest of my entire life, especially these last 2 weeks. Maybe you can relate...

Today, I feel there has been some shift for me.. in realising the 'whys', realising and understanding the 'but whys' and the 50 whys that follow that with my deeply...