Hannah's Blog
I was HALTED by the Universe. In a BIG BIG way.
This past 2 weeks has been the hardest of my entire life.
There are sooo many people around me that have lost hope in me, lost faith... given up on me... 'It has taken too long, you're always saying this.'
Some of you will turn around...
When I first began online, all I wanted to do was help people be happy.
I took courses to teach me how to figure it out and when they said you have to focus on one thing and niche down and only do this one core thing I hit a wall.
What do you mean, ONE thing??
All I wanted to do...
I get so agitated when I hear people saying 'they're just stuck in victim consciousness' ffs people really?!
What they're really saying is that:
- their emotions are invalid
- that they shouldn't be feeling the way they are feeling
- they should stop with these 'crocodile tears' - when they...
I didn't come here to fit in...
I didn't come here to be liked... or loved...
But.. somewhere along the lines... I got lost in the midst of taking everyone's words as gospel.... listening to them over myself...
I got lost in trying to understand how something I said so naturally so......
I am not from the stars... I AM THE STARS
I am the ethers from the sea in which you pine for...
I am the ocean of the calling from the birth in which you arrived for...
I am the increased frequent heart beat of the one you wish for...
I am the divine sensuality you long for...
...
Something has massively shifted... when I love on myself, even when I don't look my what I feel is my best, I know I have changed. Raw. Real. Vulnerable. Radical. Unconditional Love.
When I can support myself in ways that nurture me, instead of beat up on me when I have had a massive week...
I've been in denial...
I hit a wall on Saturday. I just couldn't. I stopped. I cried and I was internally angry and I didn't even realise how much by. It was seething. And I began pointing fingers in my mind, in my energy in my... internal anger.
And then I caught myself. Oh... hang...
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